I have this little thought inside of me which says its not going to end too well. Well, or good, being the way we all want it too. I need strength to go where I’ve never gone before. I know I am no body and I cannot change anything. The Holy Spirit is the one who convicts.

How this is going to go, only God knows.

Christmas day ends in 27mins. I’m having a quiet Christmas this year. One where I am not with people I’m normally with, nor am I having a great big ball of a time. Its interesting but I hope this never happens again! Ha!

In the morning, I went to church with my parents instead of going to GL. Was an interesting time being back. I caught up with my kindergarten buddy and some of the guys I used to play with when we were all young. It was really nice to see them again and they were really warm towards me which made going back actually fun. Big laughs and just finding out how everyone was doing was great.

Back home, helping mum with the Christmas dinner and then having a small family gathering with not everyone there. I dont know, I seem to just outcast myself when it comes to my mum’s side of the family to have their reunion. I end up sitting in a corner, or doing stuff to look busy, or just doing something on my own.

I miss my friends. And this year, its a quiet lonely Christmas. Future-wife now would be a pretty good time to show yourself. Hahahahaha!

I was talking to Dad about future girlfriend/wife what not. General talk btw, no specifics. And I realize, there are attributes which ex had which I think are hard to find in the girls today. Like seriously. Damnit, I’m sorry future gf and wife, but the standards are now pretty high :|

Which of cause I also know that translates to, Matt, sucker! #foreveralone

MRFF.